” I can look my girlfriend, my mum, my dad, my brother and my mates in the eye and know that I am living an honest and peaceful life,” said the hard-working young man
Jonathon Macleod, a 24-year-old from Motherwell, Scotland, managed to turn his life around during the Covid-19 pandemic quarantine.
Macleod began using cocaine when he was 15 years old and didn’t stop until quarantine forced him to stay indoors. This summer he began attending Cocaine Anonymous (CA) meetings and embarked on a 12-step program to quit.
When the coronavirus outbreak began, Jonathon continued to use cocaine. He realized that boredom, isolation, and leisure time led him to use even more. It was at this point, when he saw his life was being destroyed by his addiction, so he decided to do something about it.
“I was extremely anxious and paranoid, felt worthless and empty and was riddled with guilt at how I had been treating my partner, family and friends… It didn’t matter who was in my life or what I had in life, I couldn’t stop even although I wanted to”.
–The young man pointed out to UNILAD–
Jonathon changed his lifestyle and devoted his free time to attending CA meetings and learning more about his illness and mental health. He is currently on step 10 of 12 and has been sober for over 90 days. He is proud of his efforts since he never thought he would make it.
“I would sometimes cry myself to sleep or not sleep at all, trying to tell myself to stop and use my willpower to not do it again, however I would always return to using – I would often cry even while putting cocaine up my nose. Knowing that I was going around my life with a false persona and ego crippled me whenever I was left alone with my own thoughts.”
–Macleod said in the interview–
The young man said that it took him a long time to realize that he couldn’t stay sober on his own and that if he didn’t quit cocaine, he’d end up dead. However, the support of his family, his girlfriend, his friends, and CA meetings helped him overcome his addiction.
“I can lay my head to rest at night and fall asleep knowing that I am trying my hardest to be a good person and that I am not carrying any lies. I can look my girlfriend, my mum, my dad, my brother and my mates in the eye and know that I am living an honest and peaceful life.”
–He said to UNILAD–
Jonathon is happy and proud of his achievement. He feels the need to encourage others to change, and as soon as he finishes his program, he will work with newcomers to CA to help them with their addictions.