Is it possible to fulfill the dream of being a mother and feel like your life is falling apart? Pam Andras from New York broke her silence about the “dark truth” of having a baby through surrogacy at 54 years old. After 10 miscarriages and heart surgery, Pam agreed to try for a third child only to please her husband, but the result was not the fairy tale everyone expected.
The reality is that the “instinct” never came. While her niece was carrying the baby, Pam sank into total disconnection and a dangerous habit. The guilt of not connecting with her son Lucah led her to take refuge in wine to numb the resentment. It was a hellish struggle of almost 3 years between depression, bottles, and couples therapy to regain her health and her marriage.
Today, now recovered, she warns that not everything is as “glamorous” as celebrities make it seem on social media.
