The woman has wanted to be disabled since she was a child, but since surgery to cut the nerves in her legs is too expensive, she uses a wheelchair to feel like her limbs don’t really work.
Chloe Jennings-White is a 67-year-old woman who has everything to have a dream life if we look at it from the outside. She’s happily married, has a PhD in chemistry and various degrees from Cambridge and Stanford Universities, and lives in peace.
However, there is one thing she lacks and has wanted since she was a child: to be disabled. According to Huffpost, the woman reportedly suffers from “Body Integrity Identity Disorder (BIID), a psychological condition where sufferers do not accept one of their own limbs and seek to amputate them or become paraplegic.”
“When I’m in the wheelchair I’m not even thinking about the wheelchair. It’s just normal for me, but anytime I’m walking it’s always in my mind, sometimes dominating my mind, that this is not the way it’s supposed to be,”said Chloe.
It all started at the age of 4, when she finally “understood” that there was a mistake with her and that her legs weren’t supposed to work. In fact, she was jealous of disabled children and an aunt who had to wear leg braces after a serious accident.
At the age of 9, she even tried to paralyze herself by throwing herself off a stage on her bicycle, but it only resulted in scrapes and bruises. “Doing any activity that brings a chance of me becoming paraplegic gives me a sense of relief from the anxiety caused by the BIID,” she said.
Jennings-White confessed that the day she is truly disabled will be “the happiest day of her life,” but that is a long way off, as the surgery to sever the nerves in her lower extremities costs about $25,000.
“I’ll never be able to afford it, but I know I won’t regret it if I ever can, and I don’t know why it upsets people,” she said, according to News.com.au. “It’s the same as a transsexual man having his penis cut off. It’s never coming back, but they know it’s what they want.“ she finished.